If he was that good, then he should have listened to you and gone to Shiratorizawa.
[Not to parrot Ushijima's own thoughts, but it just makes sense that way. Sakusa's not a fan of things that don't make sense. He's also not a fan of Oikawa. His eyebrows twitch again, toward the later part, as he begins to fill in the blanks. Sakusa has a running timeline in his head and it's filled with his own experiences, facts about other players, and, now, Ushijima's romantic life. As that missing year of Sakusa's second year and Ushijima's last is filled in, Sakusa can't help but scowl. Not only hadn't Itachiyama played against Shiratorizawa at Nationals, but now he knows Ushijima had been spending that time tangled up in...Oikawa.
There's no regret. No sense of something missing. No second guessing what happened or how it happened.
Feeling like that are pointless, and Sakusa knows it. In the first place, it's not like he asked just to cause trouble. All he'd wanted is understanding, and now he has exactly that. There's a peace that comes with it. He should be satisfied, yet... Now that he has his answers, it makes the flickers of jealousy still stirring in his chest harder to process.]
The relationship sounds like it was over before it even began. Trying to make it work any longer would have been a waste of time on both sides.
I accept this part of you, though. It's obvious that we're much better suited together anyway. Do you regret it?
[Regret being with Oikawa or regret telling Sakusa, it's hard to tell which he means. Either way, Sakusa finally seems to relax. He's heard what he needs to hear, and it will take some time to decide what to do with this new information. For now, he's satisfied with what Ushijima has told him. He's probably broken at least Unspoken Rules of a First Date, but he pays it no mind. Instead he's relieved enough to start eating, carefully arranging portions on his appetizer plate.]
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[Not to parrot Ushijima's own thoughts, but it just makes sense that way. Sakusa's not a fan of things that don't make sense. He's also not a fan of Oikawa. His eyebrows twitch again, toward the later part, as he begins to fill in the blanks. Sakusa has a running timeline in his head and it's filled with his own experiences, facts about other players, and, now, Ushijima's romantic life. As that missing year of Sakusa's second year and Ushijima's last is filled in, Sakusa can't help but scowl. Not only hadn't Itachiyama played against Shiratorizawa at Nationals, but now he knows Ushijima had been spending that time tangled up in...Oikawa.
There's no regret. No sense of something missing. No second guessing what happened or how it happened.
Feeling like that are pointless, and Sakusa knows it. In the first place, it's not like he asked just to cause trouble. All he'd wanted is understanding, and now he has exactly that. There's a peace that comes with it. He should be satisfied, yet... Now that he has his answers, it makes the flickers of jealousy still stirring in his chest harder to process.]
The relationship sounds like it was over before it even began. Trying to make it work any longer would have been a waste of time on both sides.
I accept this part of you, though. It's obvious that we're much better suited together anyway. Do you regret it?
[Regret being with Oikawa or regret telling Sakusa, it's hard to tell which he means. Either way, Sakusa finally seems to relax. He's heard what he needs to hear, and it will take some time to decide what to do with this new information. For now, he's satisfied with what Ushijima has told him. He's probably broken at least Unspoken Rules of a First Date, but he pays it no mind. Instead he's relieved enough to start eating, carefully arranging portions on his appetizer plate.]
I was right, the portions are small.